earlier, we fought.. I understand where his coming from.. totally.. but I need him to trust me with what I’m doing.. that he should know that i’m just trying to help to make things work .. he doesn’t really have to question my doings.. phew.. I got pretty pissed and burst it a lil bit.. and decided just to ignore him..

Went down to get him so meal and coffee.. put it near him and walk away.. he called me.. But I choose just to continue going upstairs.. I just think there’s no point of asking why is he calling me when all he want is for me to eat.. and when all he know is to question my stuffs..

got back in our room. closed the door. and focus on my child.. changed his diaper and feed him.. and now his back in our room.. asking what food do I want.. I remained silent tucking my baby to sleep.. but he was too pushy to make me answer.. then I finally said “whatever he wants”.. but he wanted me to choose.. so I did.. and he kissed our child and kissed me too.. like nothing really happened.. and started asking “why..what happened” (about what were fighting about).. and at the back of my mind.. oh yesss.. you finally asked..and not just judge.. so I told him what happened and all.. then he went back to the kitchen to make the food.. and his back with a plate that has my food on it.. he even scoop some food and make me eat it.. sweet? yes it is.. I hope his always like that..

I thought our start of 2010 is awful. but it turns out okay with me. For I managed not to make the move to get things okay between me and him.. it feels good.. it really does.. I just know I should stop making the move if it’s really not my fault. and stop crying.. I wanted to have things CHANGED..

New look. New Attitute for the best.Stronger me.Happy life with him and our child.and a better living with them…

Happy New Year!